“Just one more. A little bit more.”
I could barely hear the voice muttering right next to me.
It was muffled by my moans, and my head was hazy from the stimulation coming from below.
I now understood why Taehwan hadn’t touched my front.
From a certain point onward, the back alone felt good.
Focusing entirely on the intensity of the back felt even better than having my concentration divided awkwardly between front and back.
It felt so good, so ecstatic, that it hardly mattered that my body, which was originally supposed to feel pleasure from the front, was now feeling it from the back.
In the meantime, the fingers had increased to three.
Taehwan’s fingers were already firm and thick with just one, but now he was plunging three in all at once.
Every time he did, it felt like the pleasure was crushing my brain, making it softly melt away.
It felt as though I had turned into something that felt pleasure only through its back hole, not a person anymore.
“Tae, I’m gonna, hck, I’m gonna come…”
“You can’t come yet.”
…Huh?
The moment I voiced the feeling of climax, Taehwan’s fingers abruptly moved away from the spot that made me feel good.
As the erotic sensation transmitted through my back was cut off, my mind instantly cleared.
I couldn’t believe it.
Until now, Taehwan had actively stimulated me to come, even when I didn’t want to.
Why was he stopping now?
While I was stunned by the sudden change in attitude, the abrupt loss of sensation from below, which had been feeling so good, made my whole body start to itch.
I felt like I was almost there.
Truly, just a little bit more.
“Taehwan. Why, why are you doing this. Why are you doing this to me.”
“…”
Even through all this, Taehwan’s fingers were still inside me.
The plunging motions were no different from before.
He was just skillfully avoiding and not touching the spot where I felt pleasure.
Then, as Taehwan spread his fingers wide, a very small amount of cold air seeped into the stretched opening, and I was instantly terrified.
I belatedly realized I might have injured the hole while I was moaning about how good the back felt.
It felt good, but I hadn’t even reached a climax.
A surge of unfairness welled up.
I wrenched free the wrist that had been held quietly and struggled with my legs, trying to push Taehwan away.
“Y-You’ve done enough now!”
If he wasn’t going to touch the spot I felt pleasure from, if he wasn’t going to let me come, then why was he doing this?
If he just wanted to confirm that he could have sex with me, this was already sufficient.
More than sufficient, it was too much.
Why had I even let things go this far?
Why did he keep giving me hope when we weren’t even going to become lovers?
I pounded and pushed Taehwan’s broad shoulder with my fists, filled with resentment.
“Yes. Me too… I can’t take it anymore.”
The heavily strained voice seeped into my ear.
And Taehwan finally withdrew his fingers from inside me.
I had felt an intense foreign sensation and displeasure when he first inserted his finger down there, and I had been afraid of the forced stretching, but now I felt emptiness.
It was as if I had already become accustomed to Taehwan.
How truly frustrating.
‘This is really the end now.’
I barely swallowed the tears that had welled up.
I forced strength into my limp hips and tried to sit up.
“Jehee.”
“Ah.”
But before I could, my legs were caught.
Taehwan’s hands reached under my knees and pushed my legs up, folding my body instantly.
As my lower body was naturally exposed, something touched my entrance, my anal opening.
“…Huh?”
Taehwan was still holding my legs with both hands.
Then what was I feeling down below?
I raised my head almost instinctively to confirm its identity.
And I was met with a shocking sight.
What was rubbing against me was…
Taehwan’s solidly erect member.
“Ah…?”
This was strange. I couldn’t understand.
When did that get so big?
We had been together the whole time, and I had been watching him constantly, but I never saw Taehwan touch himself.
He had been busy touching me with both hands—when, and how…?
Moreover, it wasn’t just erect.
The swollen veins and the bright red color made it look painful, as if he was about to climax at any moment.
In fact, the owner of that member had a deeply strained expression.
His voice, too.
“Sorry. Actually, I need to stretch you more… It’s still too tight, so it might hurt, but bear with me.”
“Ah.”
“I… I can’t take it anymore. Anymore…”
“Tae, haa-uuggh.”
Before I could even finish calling his name, something much thicker and more substantial than the three fingers that had just left me rushed into the emptiness below.
It was overwhelming.
It felt like my lower half was going to be completely ruined from the expansion.
Just as Taehwan said, I wasn’t ready yet.
“Hng, it’s too, narrow…”
“Y-You’re big. Hng!”
No, he was just too big.
I would never be ready to receive a thing like this.
I let out a voice mixed with resentment and tightly gripped his shoulder.
When my gaze inadvertently dropped, I saw it.
His member was truly trying to enter deep inside me.
Only the very tip, the glans, hadn’t fully entered yet, but it was definitely embedded.
‘Why…?’
I was confused.
Did Taehwan really put that inside me?
How did this happen?
Am I really going to have sex?
With Taehwan?
But isn’t sex something that people who love each other do?
If Taehwan had feelings for me, he would have said so already.
But since he hadn’t, it meant the feelings were only mine.
I naturally thought he wouldn’t go to the point of insertion.
But what on earth was going on?
Could it be that he was doing this against his will, just because I said I wanted it?
Like when he touched and sucked me before?
If so, then no.
We couldn’t cross this final line just for the sake of friendship.
If it were before I realized my feelings, maybe, but not now.
My loving feelings for him didn’t want this.
I desperately pushed his firm shoulder.
“Don’t, do this, against your will… I, I don’t have to, have sex. So… Hng!”
But either Taehwan resisted, or my arms lacked the strength, because he didn’t budge at all.
Far from pulling away, Taehwan’s hand grabbed my waist and pulled hard, causing my opening to spread and the thick, solid foreign object to penetrate further inside.
Not his fingers, but his member.
It was only the glans that had entered, but the pressure was considerable.
It felt like my lower area was going to rip apart from being forcibly stretched.
No, it might already be ruined.
The pain was that intense.
Tears dropped from my eyes.
My hands, gripping Taehwan’s wrist area, trembled uncontrollably.
“Hng, it hurts, ugh…”
“Haa… Jehee.”
Taehwan’s brow was deeply furrowed, as if I wasn’t the only one feeling this pain.
His tightly squinted eyes were bloodshot, and moans escaped even from his tightly closed lips.
But what caught my eye more than anything was the sweat.
A bead of sweat was trickling down his high nose bridge, gathering at the tip of his nose.
Taehwan rarely sweated, even as a child, but the reason for this was clarified by his next words.
“Relax…”
Relax. He must mean to relax the connection point between us, the anus.
I understood, but… I couldn’t do as he asked.
I didn’t know how.
How do I relax?
It was clearly my body, yet it didn’t feel like my own.
Was I even tensing up in the first place?
It was just a narrow place, and something was forcing its way in, even if I were relaxed and still.
“Whoo, haa…”
As I lay there trembling, unable to move, Taehwan didn’t push any further and just gently stroked my hair.
Feeling the hand that was wiping away my tears, I met Taehwan’s gaze.
Just a moment ago, his face had been full of anger, but it wasn’t now.
The wrinkles on his brow had also smoothed out considerably. In contrast, I was…
“Jehee, are you having a hard time?”
“Yes…”
“…Does it hurt?”
“Yes.”
It hurt so much.
My lower half felt like it was going to tear.
Even though he hadn’t inserted even half, or even a quarter, of it.
My body was probably more flexible than ordinary people, and most Awakeners.
But this was my first time taking something in that way, and Taehwan was big. Not just big, but excessively so.
What if I had to wear diapers again as a result of doing this today?
I was worried.
I knew Taehwan would definitely feel responsible again, thinking he had ruined me.
When I started to tear up again, Taehwan’s face looked troubled, and his lips parted.
Searching for words, he spoke very softly, as if making an excuse.
“You, you didn’t say anything. You didn’t say to stop… so….”
Taehwan took a deep breath.
The long breath he exhaled after a long pause seemed to hold back a lot, for some reason.
I knew he was holding back for me.
“If you say the word now, I’ll stop.”
But this was the one thing I couldn’t concede.
I covered my mouth with both hands.
I focused all my willpower in my eyes, glared at Taehwan, and spoke.
“…I won’t say it.”
