I knew Taehwan was exceptionally stubborn and hated to lose, but I didn’t know it was this much.
I never thought he wouldn’t back down even when doing something like this.
But if I told him to stop, it would be the same as saying I didn’t love Taehwan.
I loved Taehwan.
I wanted him to know my feelings.
I didn’t want them to be ignored and treated as if they didn’t exist.
“I absolutely won’t say it…”
“Jehee, please.”
“I will absolutely not say the word, so you surrender.”
“Please, Jehee. Tell me. Please, tell me to stop.”
While we engaged in this stubborn conversation, I became a little accustomed to the pain of my lower opening being stretched.
Since I had also relaxed a bit compared to the beginning, the squeezing pain was probably less.
But Taehwan seemed to be in more pain now than when he first entered me and pleaded for me to relax.
His hands were trembling too. Just a moment ago, I was the one crying, but now it was the opposite.
Although he wasn’t actually shedding tears, his face showed it.
He looked like he was crying, like he was in terrible distress.
I opened my mouth, completely on impulse.
“I love you, Taehwan.”
Though the content was the complete opposite of what Taehwan wanted.
“I love you… I love you. I love you. I like you so, so much. I don’t know when I started liking you, but truly… I like you, Taehwan.”
Once I said it, it felt like the dam in my heart had burst.
It poured out endlessly.
When did the love for Taehwan grow so large inside me?
Even now, it felt like it was swelling in my chest like a hot balloon.
It filled me completely and still had room left, making me spill it out again even after having just poured it out once.
“When I love you this much, there’s no way I would want to stop. I want to keep going. I want to perform the act of love with you. I wish you would empty yourself inside me. Even if it hurts, if it’s coming from you, it’s okay. I actually like it. So… if you want to end it, you surrender.”
It was embarrassing. For me, too, it wasn’t easy to reveal my love and desires so plainly.
Although I was always honest with Taehwan, I hadn’t wanted to say these things because they felt like crossing the line of ‘friendship’ that we had maintained for too long.
Moreover, both my body and mind were stripped bare, my private parts were wide open, and I was even partially receiving Taehwan’s member inside my body.
Still… he must know now.
I had driven the stake in this time.
No matter how much Taehwan didn’t want to believe it, he wouldn’t be able to deny it.
No matter how stubborn he was, no matter how much he wanted to deny reality.
‘…It hurt, but now I don’t want him to take it out.’
I wanted to go all the way with Taehwan.
Even if we couldn’t become lovers, if it was going to happen someday, I wanted my first time to be with Taehwan.
It might not be Taehwan’s first time, but I didn’t care.
Taehwan was that kind of person to me.
It was partly because I loved him so much right now, but he was also the only person I wanted to share everything I experienced in life with.
Although I couldn’t know the future, I was confident that I wouldn’t regret this choice, even if I fell in love with someone else later, even if that love was more passionate than my feelings for Taehwan now.
Even if it hurt, even if I got a little injured, if Taehwan felt good because of me—like he did with my mouth—if he reached his climax in the end, I would truly be happy…
But I knew I was being greedy.
Taehwan had already tried hard just to get this far.
It was strange for even special friends to go all the way to sex.
‘Clinch’, I pushed Taehwan away with force once more.
“Don’t be stubborn any longer, quickly. Just surrender now and don’t force it. You can take it out… I won’t resent you.”
The words I spoke after gathering all my courage couldn’t be finished.
Taehwan, who had been listening to me quietly, suddenly put strength into the hand holding my waist.
And plunge, the long, hard thing penetrated deep into my abdomen, all at once, very forcefully.
My mouth gaped open without even letting out a scream.
My body flinched and sprang up like a fish struck by a spear, and then, a beat late, I realized the situation I was in.
‘No way.’
I could feel Taehwan’s object inside my abdomen.
When I looked down again, it truly was embedded.
About halfway, it had entered inside me.
I couldn’t understand.
I was confused.
Why, exactly?
Why was he still continuing the act?
No matter how much he didn’t want to lose to me, no matter how much he wanted to keep me in this house, going all the way for just that reason would be a bigger problem, wouldn’t it?
And this wasn’t even the end of it.
“Hng, ah, Agh! Ah!”
Taehwan kept pulling my waist with force.
He was moving his hips too.
Thud, thud, every time his hands tightened and his abs clearly flexed, the huge, weapon-like object plunged deeper inside me.
Despite the screams and moans constantly tearing from my mouth, he didn’t even pause briefly, as if he couldn’t hear or see my pain.
“Haa…”
Only after it was fully inside did he stop.
When my mind, which had been flickering out from the extreme pain, began to function again, I realized that Taehwan had forced his way into the tiny opening that had only received fingers today, and was now fully inside me.
Completely.
I wanted to deny this unbelievable situation, but its presence was too great to ignore.
My lower abdomen was actually bulging slightly in the shape of Taehwan’s glans.
“W-Wait… Hng! Ah!”
“Haa…, ha…”
“Ugh, hng. Hn.”
Just because Taehwan was inside me didn’t mean it was over.
No, this was just the beginning.
Taehwan, who seemed to be catching his breath for a moment, began to move his hips.
If before it was to penetrate, this time it was a movement to thrust inside me.
The opening, which was already stretched to its limit, became hot as if scalded, as it was roughly rubbed by his movements.
Sloshing sounds came from below.
The sound of my buttock meeting Taehwan’s pelvis.
Taehwan was moving in and out of my opening. Fully erect.
“Tae, hwan, no, hck. This, isn’t right— Uhn!”
Couldn’t he hear me?
Even though I called his name while holding his cheek, Taehwan only let out shallow moans and continued the act silently.
Thump, thump, the sensation of something beating inside my belly was too vivid.
Suddenly, Taehwan’s lips, which had explained gay sex to me, came to mind.
The act of plunging a member into the lower opening, plunging it again and again, and sowing the seed.
Back then, I never thought I would be the person on the receiving end of that act.
I never dreamed I would be doing it with Taehwan.
Yet now, he was plunging his member into me.
Unable to believe it, I forced my gaze down and saw it.
The sight of the large object disappearing between my buttocks and emerging again.
And myself, with my member stiffly erect as my insides were being thrust by my childhood friend’s member.
My member was already secreting clear fluid, wetting my stomach.
“Uhn, ah. Hag. Ah.”
In that state, my body shook.
Every time Taehwan pulled my waist and thrust strongly, my member also shook, and my lower abdomen noticeably bulged.
I truly wanted to close my eyes countless times.
But I couldn’t.
Partly because of the ‘condition,’ but also because Taehwan was watching me, never taking his eyes off me for a single moment.
As if bound by those eyes, I had to face Taehwan thrusting inside me, unable to close my eyes or look away.
Of course, I couldn’t stare wide-eyed either.
Only in the narrowest sliver.
His face was flushed red, a rare sight.
His curly hair bounced every time he thrust into me, and his lips were stubbornly sealed.
The eyes looking down at me held an intense heat, but somehow, his expression itself was calm.
Like he was wearing a thin mask, revealing none of his thoughts.
“Uhn, ah, Agh, ha-uung!”
Thwack, thwack, he thrust, as if he would pierce my abdominal wall.
Was it because Taehwan was large compared to the narrow space, or was he intentionally targeting a spot even in this chaos?
Even though his thrusting seemed random and unrestrained, I was convulsing all over from pleasure every time he plunged deep.
The desire that had been pent up after being stimulated by fingers and then abruptly stopped found a way to be released and exploded immediately.
Explicit moans erupted automatically, seemingly filling the room.
Despite my inability to suppress my moans, and despite the fact that experiencing such a sight and sound from his childhood friend couldn’t possibly be pleasant, Taehwan showed no signs of displeasure.
In fact, the louder my moans got, the more his movements seemed to intensify.
“Hng, ugh! Aah. Slow, slowly. Ha-uu.”
Every time his large, solid body rammed my buttocks and plunged deep inside, I felt like my body was being pushed away, so I instinctively grabbed and hung onto Taehwan’s arm.
My unconsciously stiffened fingernails dug into his arm, where the muscles stood out from his tight grip on me.
“Hng, oooh.”
But that only lasted a moment; as my mind became hazy from the constant hitting of my extreme point, the strength quickly drained from my arms.
I couldn’t properly hold onto Taehwan and could only convulse spasmodically.
The same went for my legs.
Widely spread apart with Taehwan’s body between them, they swayed limply in the air like a doll’s every time he struck inside me.
No, not “like a doll’s”—it felt like I had actually become a doll.
I was being tossed about meaninglessly every time Taehwan thrust inside, with all my focus fixed only on him, to the point where every part of my body, except for the spot Taehwan was hitting, felt cumbersome and secondary.
Yet, I tried to keep my eyes fixed on him.
Truly, my determination not to break the ‘condition’ deserved praise.
