A chill ran down my spine.
It touched me. Down below.
Something blunt.
Specifically, Taehwan’s fingertip.
Just a moment ago, a coolness had seemed to spread through my whole body, but the heat that had subsided after my climax suddenly surged back up all at once.
My lips, gaping in shock, barely managed to form words.
“W-What are you… doing.”
“You said you wanted to have sex with me.”
Unlike me, who was in confusion, Taehwan was composed.
With his usual expressionless face, he lowered his long eyelashes and smeared the semen he had gathered with his hand into my hole, rubbing it in.
He said this as if he were just doing the most obvious thing.
“If I’m going to put it in, I have to stretch you first.”
“Ah.”
It took me a moment to understand what he meant.
I was so tense that I failed to immediately recall why I was here.
That’s right. Sex.
The act of inserting a penis into the anus.
That was the goal for today.
And it seemed I was the one who would be penetrated.
Right now, the sensation below made my vision swim, and I couldn’t see anything, but I already knew about Taehwan’s size.
Even before he was hard, it was huge, but after becoming erect… it was especially tremendous.
It was unusually long and thick, firm, and hot…
Definitely. If he just put that in, I would bleed.
No, even if he stretched me, could something like that actually fit into a person’s body?
Since it fit into my mouth, I suppose it’s possible, but the mouth is at least an organ meant for swallowing, whereas the area below is not…
Ah, I don’t know.
Too much of my focus was on the finger exploring my anus; it felt like all the functions of my body had broken down.
I couldn’t see well, it was hard to breathe, and my head wasn’t working.
“I’m putting it in.”
“Ah, oh…!”
I wasn’t ready for anything, but Taehwan seemed to think I was prepared.
It pushed its way into the narrow opening.
Inside me, was Im Taehwan.
My hips, my lower belly, stiffened.
My lips trembled at the unpleasant foreign feeling.
I had to clamp my hands over my mouth to keep from letting out a scream involuntarily.
“Jehee. Relax. It’s okay.”
“Ugh…”
“Yes. You’re doing well. Just a little more. Take a deep breath.”
“Whoo…, haa…”
Concentrating only on breathing, listening only to Taehwan’s voice like an obedient child, finally helped me relax a little.
But… it felt strange. It was a very strange feeling.
“Mmph, uh…”
It was only one finger right now.
In an act that required his member, it was still only one finger.
Although Taehwan’s hands were exceptionally large and his fingers were thick, they couldn’t compare to that object.
I wasn’t even tearing or in pain yet.
The problem was that the person who put his finger inside me was Im Taehwan.
The person I loved.
The being who was as familiar as family, whom I cherished as a friend, and whom I now even harbored the desire to become lovers with.
The one who had been unique in my life until now, and who would likely remain the root of my life, influencing me endlessly.
That Taehwan put his finger in my dirty hole.
To fulfill the ‘condition,’ I couldn’t turn away from him even in this situation; I had to acknowledge it.
And that wasn’t all.
As if he thought I had gotten used to the insertion, Taehwan’s finger slowly began to move.
He put it in deep, all the way to the root, then pulled it out a bit, spun it around, or lightly rocked it as if to widen the opening.
My hands kept going back and forth between covering and uncovering my mouth.
My chest was rising and falling rapidly.
Taehwan, who was constantly prodding me below and watching my reaction, asked.
“Are you scared?”
As soon as I heard the words, sadness washed over me like a wave.
I bit my lip tightly, released it, and nodded.
“Yes. Taehwan, I’m scared…”
It was inside my body.
And it was an opening primarily meant for excretion.
Most people would never put anything in there unless it was a medical procedure.
No, maybe even people with this sexual orientation might not engage in insertion.
Yet, not only was this my first time, but a finger much thicker and longer than what most people had was inside me, touching the interior.
There was no way I wouldn’t be scared.
“Then why don’t you say so? I said I’ll stop if you tell me.”
Taehwan’s voice, perhaps it was just my perception, sounded slightly annoyed, making the wave of sadness intensify.
It was too painful to feel the distance in our feelings.
My vision blurred and then cleared again.
At the same time, tears streamed down my temples.
I covered my mouth, trembling uncontrollably, and finally managed to speak.
Taehwan might despise me for saying this, but it was my unavoidable truth.
“I’m scared, but… I’m also looking forward to it…”
I still couldn’t understand, rationally, why people did this kind of act.
But I hadn’t understood everything I had done with Taehwan so far, and when I did them, did I hate it?
No. I liked it, actually.
I wanted more.
That’s why I was here now.
It wasn’t because of the obligation to leave this house.
Perhaps, it wasn’t even to convince Taehwan, but I just truly…
‘Ugh’, the more thoughts crowded my head, the louder my crying became.
Eventually, my tightly clamped lips parted, and the emotions I had tried to swallow erupted.
“I’m sorry. I still… I still want to have sex with you…”
I wanted to do the act that people who love each other do, with Taehwan.
I wanted to do something dirty… with Taehwan.
I seemed to have become a pervert after leaving the hospital and learning about ‘kissing.’
My desires were growing, making me harbor increasingly erotic expectations toward Taehwan.
I wanted him to touch me below, I wanted to feel his breath close by, and I wanted to hug his large body and fully feel his warmth.
I wanted to kiss him a lot.
With him, even if it was embarrassing, scary, and painful, it felt good.
All those feelings became pleasure to me.
Perhaps it was because I loved him.
Because I loved Taehwan so, so much.
Because I wanted to give him my everything.
“I’m sorry, I’m sor— Ah-uugh!”
Just then, my breath suddenly caught in my throat.
My hips jumped up and convulsed slightly.
My mind went blank, and I couldn’t even tell why this was happening to me.
“Wh-What is…”
“Ah. Found it, did I?”
“What, what did you find… Ah. Hag!”
I belatedly realized that when Taehwan touched ‘a certain spot’ inside, my body reacted strangely.
A sharp, electric current spread throughout my entire body, and then I felt like my body was floating lightly.
“Do you like this spot?”
“No, ugh, Aah! Ah.”
With every firm poke and press, a strange moan escaped my lips.
It was humiliating, but it was impossible to hold back.
It was strange.
Why, oh why, did putting a finger in my back passage and touching the inside feel so incredibly good?
I couldn’t understand this body.
“You’ll hurt yourself. Don’t bite your lip.”
I must have been biting my lip to suppress my moans without realizing it.
Taehwan’s hand forcibly parted my lips and pushed his finger right inside my mouth.
“Hng, ha-u, uhn.”
Thanks to that, I had no choice but to open my mouth, if only to avoid biting Taehwan, and a very explicit moan escaped every time Taehwan firmly stimulated the inside of my other opening.
But… pleasure tends to cloud one’s reason, and I quickly stopped caring that a finger was inside my anus, that the owner of that finger was Im Taehwan, or that raw sounds were spilling out haphazardly.
There was only one thing I wanted now.
“Taehwan. M-My lips aren’t, I won’t bite, so… touch, touch my… m-member, please…”
I wanted him to touch my front.
I wished he would shake it hard with his large, warm hand and make me come.
I wasn’t sure what was happening to me, but the spot he was touching now felt too good, and I wanted to feel even better.
If he touched both front and back, simultaneously, the pleasure would be manifold.
I would come instantly.
Maybe multiple times, very exquisitely.
Just the thought made me groan and moan.
If Taehwan hadn’t been positioned between my legs, I might have been twisting my body like I was drunk.
But… contrary to my expectation, a very firm answer came back.
“No.”
“Why. Whyyy…?”
“Jehee, concentrate.”
“Ugh…”
He didn’t explain why, but the finger touching my back only pressed harder.
It was so hard that I gasped in surprise.
And I knew Taehwan too well to not know that he would be stubborn no matter what I said.
In moments like this, Taehwan was like a contrarian.
If I told him not to touch, he would touch, and if I asked him to touch, he would firmly refuse, saying he wouldn’t.
Feeling upset, I tried to touch myself, but as if he had expected it, Taehwan immediately grabbed both my hands and pinned them down.
It was humiliating—my two hands were completely restrained by just one of Taehwan’s.
So easily.
At the same time, I hated that I found even this part of Taehwan adorable.
That I was happily accepting being completely manipulated by him.
But… I knew better than anyone that this, too, was based on the belief that Taehwan would not harm me.
“Aah-ugh, hag. Hwaa.”
The number of fingers poking me from behind had somehow increased to two.
One had been overwhelming enough, so this was truly something.
As the intensity of the stimulation on my sensitive spot increased, the pain of my narrow opening widening became irrelevant.
