“Jehee.”
“Ugh.”
“Breathe.”
“Haa. Hah…”
Had I unknowingly been holding my breath?
Only after hearing Taehwan’s words did air finally rush into my lungs, and I gasped for breath.
My face was so hot I could barely keep my eyes open.
Yet, even in this state, I couldn’t help but recall the ‘condition’ we’d agreed on earlier, so I lifted my eyelids and tried to take in Taehwan’s face.
Our eyes met.
His expression was calm and blank.
His eyes were clear.
Taehwan looked pretty much the same as always, save for a slight flush on his cheeks.
What was he thinking?
Honestly, I didn’t think we would even kiss… but we had.
The moisture that made those lips glimmer slightly under the dim light was surely my saliva.
Which meant… I really was, with Taehwan…
“Stick your tongue out.”
“Uh…”
“Good girl. You’re doing well. Such a good girl.”
Taehwan’s tongue met mine, which I had extended out.
“Ah— Oh. Ah.”
It dragged against mine for a long, long moment.
Taehwan’s tongue was much larger than mine, quickly wetting the area around my mouth.
It felt like I was being devoured.
The sensation of our tongues rubbing, Taehwan’s face so close, and his ticklish breath—all of it was overwhelming.
But since our lips weren’t touching right now, I wasn’t sure if it was alright to close my eyes.
Perhaps he was thinking similarly, because Taehwan’s eyes were also open, and I could do nothing but watch him suck on my tongue without even blinking once.
“Aah…”
If the first kiss had merely felt good, this one made the reality hit hard: I was kissing none other than Im Taehwan.
I felt so good, so incredibly happy, yet it also felt like I was doing something forbidden, making me constantly want to clamp my lips shut.
To somehow control the emotions that felt ready to explode into something bad, I forced myself to tense my jaw and keep my mouth open.
But suddenly, the gown I was wearing slipped, becoming loose.
“Ah. Tae, Taehwan…”
“If you don’t like it, say ‘stop’.”
Taehwan untied the ribbon around my waist and slid the bathrobe off my shoulders.
As the cool air hit my body, which was already flushed from the kiss, my senses felt sharp and hyper-aware.
In the midst of this, Taehwan’s hands naturally approached and grabbed my waist.
His hot hands felt like they would leave red marks on my skin.
“Aah…”
“Don’t hold back. And don’t be stubborn for no reason.”
“…I, I’m not.”
What kind of courage had suddenly possessed me?
Was it the urge to defy Taehwan’s action of prompting me to say ‘stop’?
Impulsively, I moved my face closer to his.
—Smack. Smack.
I kissed him haphazardly, then barely managed to open my eyes and respond.
“I-I don’t, hate it. Not at all.”
There’s no way I would hate it.
My body had already been touched by Taehwan countless times; why would I suddenly hate it now?
Of course, this feeling was different from when I received his ‘care.’
It was clearly the same hands, the same body, yet it felt much more stimulating.
The slightly rough texture and the temperature, warmer than mine, were completely different from before.
And so… I liked it.
“You… You can touch me more if… Mmf. Uhn…”
Before I could finish saying ‘…you’d like’, Taehwan’s lips sealed mine.
This was the third kiss today.
I was now quite used to the strange feeling from the first time we kissed, and I had the presence of mind to naturally open my lips and welcome his exploring tongue.
“Hut, ah. Ha-up.”
My moment of having the leisure to actively follow Taehwan’s movements lasted only briefly.
He grabbed my chin and clung to me as if to devour me.
Unlike the composed beginning, I quickly became breathless, struggling just to keep up with his movements.
While concentrating solely on the movement of our lips and tongues, my body slowly shifted backward until I was lying on the bed, looking up at Taehwan.
‘Haa, haa…’
I was catching my breath, trying to steady my dizzy mind, when I suddenly felt Taehwan’s gaze.
“Ah.”
The bathrobe was now completely off, fully exposing my body.
I was completely naked, without any underwear.
And Taehwan began to very slowly, almost obsessively, look over me.
The only light in the room was a very faint bulb, and with Taehwan towering over me, there was quite a distance.
His expression was hard to see, but the movement of his eyes was strangely clear.
Taehwan’s gaze traveled from my face to my neck, flowed from my neck to my shoulder line, and stopped at my chest.
“Ugh…”
We had been in a close relationship for a very long time, and I had received his care for so long that my body must have been familiar enough for him to draw it from memory.
But why was he looking so intently, even licking his tightly closed lips to wet them?
And… the truth was, I felt strange, too.
My body kept twitching. It felt as if Taehwan’s gaze had a physical force, touching every corner of my body wherever his eyes rested.
The shame that had been quietly accumulating, like snowflakes on a winter night, finally burst when his gaze reached my pelvic area, past my navel and waist.
My body instinctively recoiled, and my legs, in particular, were desperate to hide my private parts.
But Taehwan was faster than I was.
His hands grabbed my wrists and pinned them down, and at the same time, his knee pressed against my thigh to hold me in place.
I barely swallowed the cry of surprise that was about to escape.
“Ah, why…”
“Jehee. You said you wanted to have sex with me.”
“…Uh, yes. I did, but…”
“But how can you try to cover yourself instead of showing me more? Huh?”
“…”
If I were to engage in a power struggle with Taehwan, I would probably win.
Because Taehwan would never suppress me with force.
I was confident about that, but I decided not to resist any further.
Because he was right.
I was here because I wanted to have sex with him.
As soon as I straightened my slumped shoulders and relaxed my legs, Taehwan pushed me up with his knee, forcing my legs to spread even wider.
I could feel Taehwan’s gaze settle on my genitals.
It was more intense than when he looked at my chest.
Was it because he found it small and cute compared to his own, like when he had bitten it before?
It was truly humiliating.
But in the midst of it all, I had to keep the condition, so I had to keep watching Taehwan as he looked at my genitals.
“Woo… W-Wait…”
“‘Wait’ won’t stop it.”
He said it firmly, then went a step further, grabbing behind my knees and pulling my body up so I was half-folded.
This caused my hips to lift slightly into the air.
At first, I didn’t know what he was doing, but once the cold air hit my backside, it became unmistakable.
He was looking.
Taehwan was looking at my ‘entrance.’
“Ah…”
Even though my eyes were open, it felt like my vision was blacking out in flashes.
My chest was rising and falling faster.
My heart was also pounding quickly, to the point where my head felt dizzy from the blood rushing through it.
My mouth gaped open in a reflex.
‘Please s—’
I swallowed the words that had reached my throat just in the nick of time.
But my heart was still screaming.
‘Please stop looking, why are you looking there?’
Of course, my ‘there’ wouldn’t be all that special to Taehwan.
But I knew that right now, it wasn’t being seen just as an exit hole; this was the first time I was being viewed in this specific context, and I simply could not maintain my composure.
“Taehwan, please…”
“Yes. Tell me.”
Ironically, Taehwan’s characteristically gentle voice made my head cool down even more.
I felt a sense of incongruity.
It was as if he was expecting something.
And I was certain that his ‘expectation’ was not going to be good for me.
Only then did my vision clear, and I could properly assess the situation.
Taehwan wasn’t looking down at me. He was focused on my face, specifically my lips.
The posture was so provocative that not looking directly at Taehwan had led to a misunderstanding.
My parted lips snapped shut.
My brows furrowed in sync.
‘…I was almost played.’
Now I understood.
Taehwan was deliberately trying to unsettle me.
To provoke the word ‘stop’ out of my mouth.
His long scrutiny of my body and this humiliating situation were clearly planned actions.
He’s a proud guy; he wouldn’t want to lose the bet with me.
He hasn’t fully escaped his guilt yet and desperately wants to keep me tied to this house.
To do that, he needs to win somehow, but he can’t manage it through fair means.
He managed the kiss by invoking ‘cleaning’ or whatever, since he’d done that before, but he doesn’t have the confidence to actually have sex with me, so he’s tormenting me with these actions.
I couldn’t let myself be drawn into Taehwan’s pace any further.
No matter how embarrassing it was to have my legs splayed open beneath him and feel his gaze focused there, absolutely not.
…But even if I understood Taehwan’s scheme, I didn’t want to maintain this position, legs wide open beneath him, for long.
To break the tension, I urgently spoke.
“Im Taehwan, you take your clothes off too.”
