Seeing Yoo Joohwan looking so happy he could die made my conscience prickle.
I felt a surge of dread thinking about what he would feel tomorrow when he realized I had run away.
He might curse me out of spite, or hate me for breaking my promise.
‘I wanted to leave behind a good image.’
But then I realized that the act of leaving itself made a “good image” impossible.
Overwhelmed by emotion, I tightly gripped the hem of Yoo Joohwan’s shirt.
“Are you really that happy?”
“Of course. It’s going to be an unforgettable day for both of us.”
Hearing the underlying joy in his serious voice made my chest feel tight.
Since I had started things with Kang Taeyun and had that special outdoor experience with Moon Dowon, it seemed Yoo Joohwan also wanted to create a lasting memory.
I didn’t misunderstand his heart; each encounter was a vivid memory for them.
Feeling a gritty sensation in my throat as if I’d swallowed sand, I pushed Yoo Joohwan back slightly.
“Joohwan. Even without a rut, I won’t be able to forget any of the time I spent with you. Every moment you showed me was truly special.”
From the ice cream to the hair removal and the prosthetic models—Yoo Joohwan had shown me so many diverse things that I truly wouldn’t be able to forget him for the rest of my life.
Perhaps thinking I was hesitating because I didn’t want to spend the rut with him, Yoo Joohwan let the smile fade from his lips.
“You really don’t trust me, do you? But look at you—you’ve handled two of them already. And with a body that just finished.”
“…….”
“If you could handle that, a rut will be nothing for you. I’ll sufficiently please you and make sure it doesn’t hurt. Just trust me.”
“I’m sorry, but Dowon said that too.”
“Moon Dowon and I are different. You know that. Look at the things I’ve done with you so far. Unlike Moon Dowon, I’m quite knowledgeable in certain areas.”
He was making grand promises, but I could already see the image of Yoo Joohwan losing his mind and pouncing on me during a rut.
In that state, I doubted he’d be any different from the Moon Dowon who had pushed through recklessly.
I didn’t bother correcting him and just nodded.
“I get it. Don’t be mad. It’s just because it’s my first time experiencing it… I was scared.”
“I suppose it could be like that from your perspective. Still, trust me. I’m your boyfriend. Just like when you moved on your own while sucking my cock, I’ll let you be the one in control this time too.”
Telling me not to worry, Yoo Joohwan pressed my cheeks together and kissed my lips.
Mwah, mwah.
The kissing was fine, but he pressed my cheeks so hard my face contorted.
“…Y-your hands.”
“Ah. I want to shove my cock in you right now.”
“…….”
“Just kidding.”
He laughed lightly and let go of my face, but the dark desire in his eyes couldn’t be hidden.
He stared intensely at my lips as if wanting to devour the inside of my mouth, then grabbed my arm to pull my face closer.
“I’m going to imprint on you properly.”
“…….”
“Even if my come overflows from you, I’ll make you swallow every drop.”
“…Why are you saying things like that?”
“Because that day, I intend to make you my partner. Even if you’re a beta, I’ll leave a proper imprint on you just like an omega, and I’ll sow my seeds deep inside you. It’ll be different from the mark currently on your neck.”
Yoo Joohwan intimidated me as if everything he’d shown so far was nothing.
He was telling me to trust him one moment, then revealing his dark cravings and talking seriously about a future the next.
And all this to someone he’d only known for a short while.
‘It would have been better if I didn’t know all these relationships were just a world inside a novel…’
Feeling a sense of pity, I managed to open my mouth and speak.
“What if a truly good person appears later? It’s not too late to meet more people before deciding on your future. We’re still young.”
“If that were the case, I wouldn’t be wearing this necklace so proudly.”
Yoo Joohwan pulled out the necklace he was wearing and gave the pendant a long kiss.
Seeing him kiss it so dearly as if it were a sacred object, it felt like even after I ran away, his eyes would flip and he’d chase me to the ends of the earth.
‘I need to make him meet Kim Seunghyun quickly.’
Otherwise, Yoo Joohwan’s obsession would never end.
“I understand. Tomorrow, can you take Dowon and Taeyun to the cafe first? There are three of you, but Seunghyun is alone. He’s a more soft-hearted person than you’d think.”
“For someone “soft-hearted,” isn’t he sticking to your side a bit too annoyingly? Just the fact that he’s holding his ground against three alphas means he’s a piece of work. That’s not something possible with a normal mental state.”
“…You guys said you wanted to meet him.”
“The fact that he’s showing up instead of running away proves he’s not an ordinary guy.”
Yoo Joohwan shifted his posture, asking why I was being so naive.
Watching him sit diagonally with his arms behind him, I spoke quietly.
“Fine, I’ll take that back. He might not be soft-hearted, but he’s still an omega. It’s dangerous for him to be in front of alphas….”
“Are you crazy, Seo Siho?”
“…….”
“Are you saying I’d actually go into heat for a guy like that?”
It was a time when Kim Seunghyun, who was barely holding on with heat suppressants, would be meeting three men on the verge of their ruts.
No one knew what might happen.
When I stayed silent without denying it, Yoo Joohwan’s face hardened instantly.
“Ha, what do you take me for?”
“…I didn’t mean it like that. I just wanted to prevent any potential incidents.”
“If I were the type to swing my cock around at just anyone, every omega in the world would be sucking it right now. Why are you making me so angry? What do you even gain from this?”
“I wasn’t trying to make you angry.”
“Whatever the case, listen well. I hate people who mess around and spill their seed everywhere. I hate irresponsibility, too.”
His eyes were filled with a murderous glare.
Fear prickled my skin, but that gaze wasn’t directed at me.
It was a look of resentment directed at someone else.
Just as I was about to ask about the story behind that look, the front door opened and someone walked in.
It was Moon Dowon.
“Am I interrupting?”
“If you know that, then leave.”
“I can’t do that.”
Despite Yoo Joohwan’s harsh words, Moon Dowon ignored him, took off his shoes, and entered.
He opened the window to clear the scent of pheromones and sprayed a deodorizer he was carrying.
“What’s with these pheromones? Why are you so angry, Yoo Joohwan? It’s not like you.”
“Why are you here?”
“To check on Seo Siho’s condition. I was worried, and since he’s moving tomorrow, I thought I’d help move his cash. But first, withdraw your pheromones. I feel like I’m going to suffocate.”
It seemed Yoo Joohwan, who rarely gets angry, was emitting incredibly menacing pheromones.
They were pheromones filled with a killing intent strong enough to startle even Moon Dowon.
Moon Dowon looked down at Yoo Joohwan with a worried gaze when he didn’t answer, then turned to me.
“Did something happen?”
“…I think I hurt Joohwan’s feelings.”
The face of Yoo Joohwan, who had now suppressed his anger, looked exactly like that.
I didn’t know exactly which words had hurt him, but he seemed angry that I had taken his heart so lightly.
‘How did the conversation even flow that way…’
Feeling troubled, I scratched my cheek and offered an apology to Yoo Joohwan.
“I’m sorry. I didn’t say those things to hurt you.”
“Yeah. I overreacted. I’m sorry too.”
Yoo Joohwan stood up, saying it wasn’t something to get so worked up about.
He ran a hand through his hair as if to calm his anger, then went to the door, put on his shoes, and headed out to the rooftop.
In the uncomfortable atmosphere, Moon Dowon looked down at me and asked.
“It’s rare for Yoo Joohwan to show such killing intent.”
“Did he mention anything about his birth?”
“His birth…?”
Moon Dowon was surprisingly tender when it came to Yoo Joohwan.
Even now, he looked like he wanted to follow him out.
I fidgeted with my fingers in silence at the awkwardness.
“Then what was it?”
As Moon Dowon kept asking, I thought of Yoo Joohwan mentioning responsibility.
Thinking back on the flow of the conversation, it seemed related to what Moon Dowon meant by “his birth.”
‘I never knew because he was always so bright…’
I never imagined he’d have such a dark secret hidden away.
While I hesitated, Yoo Joohwan, who seemed to have calmed down and turned more gentle, stepped back inside.
“I’m an illegitimate child.”
“…What?”
“I’m the product of some bastard of a father failing to keep his cock in his pants.”
