GTLTGIDES chapter 41

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“…”

It felt amazing.

So much so that my body felt like it was melting.

Even though it wasn’t just my mind, Rex’s body, naturally warm, enveloped me, making me feel like I was dissolving.

As my strength faded, and I was on the verge of collapsing, Rex wrapped his arm around my waist to hold me up.

His other hand gently supported my neck.

Rex, who had been quietly looking down at my face, licked his lips before kissing me again, whispering softly.

“…You look seductive.”

I wanted to snap back with, ‘There you go again with that seductive face talk!’ but this time, I couldn’t argue against it.

I probably did have that kind of face.

Because it really did feel that good.

“Don’t say things like that.”

As if I wasn’t embarrassed enough already, his words made me even more so.

I barely managed to lift a hand to cover my face.

But it was in vain as Rex quickly pulled my hand away. I was about to tell him to leave me alone, but Rex spoke first.

“Heewoon, do you want to sleep with me?”

I blinked. It took me a moment to fully grasp what Rex was asking.

So, he wasn’t just suggesting we sleep together, right…?

“Are you saying you want to go to the next level? I’ve told you before that the first level is more than enough. Especially now, when I don’t really have any pent-up energy…”

“No, I don’t need any guidance on that. I just want to sleep with you.”

“Ah…?”

“Is that a no? I don’t have any experience, but I’ll try my best. I’m an Esper, so I’m strong and have good stamina. Wouldn’t that be okay? Or is that why you don’t want to? Are you afraid I might hurt you? If that’s the case, I promise I’ll go slowly, and if you ask me to stop, I will…”

My ears must be malfunctioning, right?

Did Rex just suggest spending the night with me, completely unrelated to work?

And with Eunsoo, who’s sound asleep nearby?

‘Well, Eunsoo is still a minor, so he wouldn’t consider him in that way…’

Rex has always been the most straightforward when it came to his desires in ‘The Genius Guide’s Melancholy’… but I never imagined I’d be the object of those desires.

Especially since the body of ‘Yang Heewoon’ isn’t exactly brimming with sexual appeal.

I’m not handsome, and my body is so frail it’s pitiful.

I couldn’t understand why he was saying these things.

“…Is that a no?”

His thick, red eyebrows furrowed into a sad ‘八’ shape as he asked.

He looked like a child asking for one more piece of candy, and it was adorable.

The problem was, what he wanted wasn’t candy—it was my virginity.

“Well…”

I opened and closed my mouth repeatedly.

I think I turned him down pretty quickly before, but today it wasn’t as easy.

That’s how good Rex’s kiss was.

Being in his arms felt nice too.

If I spent the night with him… it would probably feel even better.

It would hurt like hell, but I’m used to pain and I handle it well.

‘I don’t want to end up as a ghostly virgin in this second life either…’

Maybe just one night wouldn’t be so bad? Without any feelings involved, just one night.

But there was one clear reason why I couldn’t accept Rex’s proposal tonight.

“I’m sorry. Eunsoo is waiting for me…”

He’s just a kid who recently entered someone else’s home. I can’t leave him alone for too long.

Even though he’s sleeping now, he might wake up.

If he wakes up and I’m not there, he might think I ran away because I don’t like him.

I absolutely can’t leave the house.

And doing it at home is even more out of the question.

“…Okay.”

Ordinarily, Rex would’ve protested a bit more, but tonight he unexpectedly let me go without any complaints.

Instead, he gently pulled me by the chin and left a soft goodnight kiss on my lips.

“…Get home safely.”

“Why are you telling me that?”

Rex chuckled softly.

Right, of all people, Rex doesn’t have anything to be careful about.

“Yeah. You go in first.”

Maybe it was the moonlight playing tricks on me, but Rex seemed especially reliable and larger than usual as he said goodbye.

His body was always big, but now it felt like I could depend on him emotionally too.

‘Heewoon, do you want to sleep with me?’

His words came back to me, and my face flushed.

I practically fled into the house.

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• Click.

The door closed.

As he heard the footsteps fade, almost like someone running away, Rex Hamilton held his head in his hands.

“…I was too hasty.”

Yang Heewoon’s startled expression was seared into his mind.

It was too rash.

Even if Yang Heewoon had agreed, he had only just been discharged from the hospital.

It would’ve been tough to go all the way.

But even if he could turn back time, Rex knew he wouldn’t have been able to suppress his impulses.

That frail body, looking like it would break with just a little force, had gone limp in his arms, gazing up at him with tearful eyes…

It was a miracle he hadn’t done something more shameful.

…It was truly fortunate that Yang Heewoon didn’t know the ‘size’ of what he was dealing with, otherwise there would never have been another chance.

“Hah, I didn’t plan on liking him this much…”

How did it come to this?

Even if he retraced his memories, he couldn’t pinpoint the exact moment he started to fall for him.

Still, he was relieved.

He had been worried since that annoying kid moved in with him, but it seemed nothing significant had happened yet.

A sweet kiss and a peaceful night with Yang Heewoon.

That was enough for today.

“Sleep well, Yang Heewoon.”

It was time to retreat, though it was a shame.

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It had been a whirlwind of a night.

Eunsoo’s “I love you” and Rex’s “Do you want to sleep with me?” had both shaken my heart to its core.

Although Rex’s bombshell statement could’ve left me preoccupied, I surprisingly snapped back to reality quickly.

Because I was absolutely terrible at housework.

I’ve lived alone for a long time, but I didn’t have much attachment to life, so I always lived sloppily.

Cleaning was half-hearted, laundry was half-hearted, and the thing I did most half-heartedly was cooking.

My philosophy was that as long as it filled my stomach, the taste and nutrition didn’t matter.

‘But I can’t feed Eunsoo that kind of food.’

Everything that goes into my child’s mouth should be perfect in taste, nutrition, and appearance.

That’s why I prepared quite thoroughly.

I researched what diets are good for teenagers, carefully planning out meals considering calories and nutrients.

But, of course, you can’t suddenly become good at something you’ve never done before.

I was currently in the midst of a fierce battle.

Despite the increasing evidence of a disastrous struggle, I still hadn’t seen the fruits of my labor.

Five failed attempts at making rolled omelets.

Not just omelets—scrambled eggs, or anything recognizable as eggs, but rather a charred black substance that barely resembled anything edible, which I had to throw away in frustration.

The truly sad part was that with each of the five attempts, the level of failure got worse rather than improving.

I had no idea what I was doing wrong. And since I didn’t know, I had no solutions.

“Damn, do I have to admit defeat…”

“What are you doing?”

“Eek.”

I nearly jumped out of my skin. I almost had a heart attack.

When did Eunsoo wake up? He was standing at the bedroom door, staring at me.

Eunsoo, freshly awake with messy hair, eyes lazily half-closed, and his clothes slightly disheveled.

Every little detail exuded a cuteness that could make any otaku’s heart flutter, but unfortunately, now was not the time to be distracted by my personal feelings.

“E-Eunsoo, you should go back to bed…”

“I’ve slept enough. Do you know what time it is?”

“Well, it’s around 8 in the morning… No, it’s not.”

It’s 10 a.m.

When did time pass like this?

I subtly used my body to block the mess of the sink while quickly disposing of the unrecognizable ‘would-be food’ as fast as I could.

“Wow, what is all this…?”

“…”

However, it was too late. Eunsoo reached my side faster than I could clean up the scattered remnants of the battle.

He looked at me with a gaze full of disappointment.

I know. I’m a lousy guardian.

Not even able to prepare breakfast for a child—I’m so pathetic that even if I were stripped of my guardian status this morning, I wouldn’t have any excuses.

‘But, Eunsoo, I’m still the one who loves you the most in this world…’

I couldn’t say it out loud, so I fervently appealed to his in my mind.

At least for now, before anything begins with the three Espers! I love you the most!

Of course, just because I love his doesn’t mean I can be forgiven for being an incompetent guardian…

“Ahjussi, you can’t cook?”

“No…”

“Then, how have you lived all this time?”

“Usually, from the convenience store where you used to work…”

“But all you drank was coffee milk.”

“…”

“If you live like that, you’ll get malnutrition. And guiding takes up a lot of energy, doesn’t it?”

How does he know I’ve only been drinking coffee milk?

‘Could it be that he was actually paying more attention to me than I thought, like with his jealousy of Rex…?’

Now that I think about it, maybe so.

Eunsoo, during the time he was confined, would have been a strictly by-the-book arbiter.

Yet he was the one who first told me his name, even though I was just a regular customer, and he didn’t refuse when I offered his a drink. He would often stare at me as well.

He also held my hand tightly while I was hospitalized, waiting for me to wake up. Maybe I had a bigger impact on him than I thought.

Confidence began to well up inside me, and my lips trembled.

‘Could it be that I’ve been promoted to something like a secondary character…?’

I’m not just happy—I’m thrilled.

To think that Yang Heewoon, who was nothing more than an extra who wouldn’t even cross paths with Eunsoo, has now become someone who leaves a mark in his life.

‘I should stop daydreaming…’

If I don’t apply the brakes soon, this could get out of hand.

And my daydreaming was indeed just that—nothing but foolish delusion.

Eunsoo was glaring at me with his beautiful brow furrowed, as if he couldn’t stand the sight of me.

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