The touch used to soothe the body that was still shaking irregularly was incredibly tender.
It felt so gentle that the way he had pushed Lowell just moments ago felt like a lie.
Relieved, Lowell leaned against Felix’s chest and closed his eyes.
Then, as if he had been waiting, Felix stirred inside him once more.
“I was just matching you because you seemed to want to do things differently than usual.”
New stimulation rushed in just as his tension had vanished.
His inner walls, which had tasted a brief moment of quiet, throbbed at the new movement.
Because the sensation echoed from his perineum to the very end of his inner walls, Lowell tilted his head back and moaned.
The sensation that returned after subsiding was so vivid it was terrifying, and the urge to climax surged instantly.
Fluid gushed from him.
Felix let out a dark groan at the large amount, as if Lowell had ejaculated from the back.
Lowell realized too late that he had triggered Felix in the wrong way, but it was already too late.
“Wait, just a second…”
Felix, who had been pressing inside sluggishly, began to move faster as if picking up pace.
Lowell’s body, floundering amidst the flickering lights before his eyes, was pinned down by Felix’s arms, unable to move.
But this time, a feeling closer to the urge to urinate than a sexual climax bloomed from his lower abdomen.
“Ah, hng. Just a moment. Wait!”
Perhaps thinking the desperate plea was just a tantrum, Felix only hugged Lowell tighter.
The sound of Felix’s breathing and the squelching sounds from the opening hit Lowell’s ears.
“Felix! I’m, I’m going to go!”
“It’s okay. No need to be surprised at this late stage.”
When Lowell reached down to try and block himself and was stopped, he called out Felix’s name like a scream.
But instead of stopping, Felix went as far as to lightly bite Lowell’s nipple.
In the end, while trapped by Felix, Lowell shook as if his whole body were exploding.
The transparent liquid from his member didn’t just soak Felix’s hand, but trickled down like a stream.
“Lowell?”
Felix called out, but the body in his arms didn’t answer, only trembling as if he had lost consciousness for a moment.
Even then, the inner walls spasmed greatly, clinging to Felix’s member as if sucking it in.
At that intense stimulation, Felix also finally released his held-back semen.
“You’re wet in the front as well as the back.”
Even while his consciousness hadn’t fully returned, Lowell’s stomach trembled as if he felt the ejaculation inside.
Felix, who was going to wait until he woke up, changed his mind and gently grabbed Lowell’s member.
The member that had been trickling water responded to the rough hand shaking it by leaking even more.
“Lowell, can I go one more time?”
Even though he asked, Felix didn’t wait for an answer before slamming back in.
“Ah, ugh!”
The only thing Lowell could do upon regaining consciousness was cling to Felix and cry.
Lowell slowly opened his eyes at the sensation of something warm touching his body.
Felix, who was wiping him down with a towel, met Lowell’s eyes and reflexively smiled back.
Beyond the window, the moon had long since tilted away, and the rising sun was staining the sky red.
“Are you awake?”
“Did I sleep for a long time?”
The word “fainted” would have been more appropriate than “slept,” but Lowell used the softer term.
Felix, who was loosely wearing a robe, twisted his lips into a smile that held both satisfaction and self-reproach.
“No. It was about thirty minutes.”
Lowell lifted a hand that was still trembling and stroked Felix’s face.
His soft skin brushed against the cheek and toyed with the earlobe.
At that small gesture filled with affection, Felix’s heart fluttered as if it were being tickled.
“Why are you making such a funny face?”
“I was thinking that I pushed you too hard.”
“I guess you were aware.”
Lowell threw a joke as if rebuking him and entrusted his whole body to Felix.
It was a gesture of complete trust, like a young animal entrusting itself to its parent.
This trust, which felt almost innocent, had never broken and firmly supported the two of them.
Felix swallowed the overwhelming emotion and brushed back Lowell’s hair.
Lowell blinked his sleepy eyes at the fluttering touch.
“Do you really want to have a child?”
Felix, who had finished putting the robe on Lowell and fastening it, toyed with the last button several times before finally speaking.
Lowell, who had judged after seeing Felix’s reaction yesterday that it would be a difficult topic to bring up yet, opened his heavy eyelids wide in surprise.
Felix patted Lowell’s chest as if to soothe him.
“Weren’t you against it, Felix?”
“Right. If nothing else, Lowell, I can’t do anything that puts your health at risk. You remember how hard it was when we had Edwin.”
Felix’s eyes lost their color as if sinking into darkness.
Just thinking about it felt like being trapped in the agony of hell.
Veins popped on the arm Felix used to hug Lowell.
Lowell rubbed his hair against Felix’s chest, pulling him back to reality from the thoughts of the past.
“That was because the situation wasn’t good. Don’t you remember that Edwin protected me?”
Felix listened silently to Lowell’s words.
He understood Lowell’s point with his head, but his repulsion toward pregnancy didn’t easily disappear.
Unlike his mother, Lowell had become healthier after giving birth to Edwin, but various negative memories were intertwined and remained unresolved.
“I don’t intend to insist if you hate it, Felix. But Edwin looks at children with siblings with such envious eyes, so I guess I suddenly got greedy too.”
Lowell’s whisper, spoken slowly with blinking eyes, drifted and seeped into Felix.
To Felix’s ears, it felt sweeter than any music.
“Was that so?”
“Yes. At first, I started wondering, if we had a second one, would it be a boy or a girl? Which do you prefer, Felix?”
“I don’t care either way. They would be as lovely as Edwin.”
“They would, wouldn’t they? I’m curious what a daughter would be like, but even a son would definitely be cute, looking like you.”
Felix was swept up in Lowell’s way of speaking.
By the time he realized it, it was no longer an atmosphere where he could say, ‘What’s the point of talking about a child we aren’t having.’
And even if it weren’t for that, he couldn’t pour cold water on the situation when Lowell had such a happy face.
“It would be even better if they looked like Lowell.”
He had intended to just play along, but Felix accidentally imagined a child who looked like Lowell.
The image of Edwin lingering around a child who was cute just by breathing filled his head.
The imagination he had suppressed until now rushed in like a waterfall and occupied Felix’s consciousness.
“That’s right. We’ll be happy no matter who they look like.”
Lowell carefully watched Felix’s wavering eyes.
The moment he confirmed that it wasn’t as impossible as he thought, there was no reason to hesitate.
“Our happiness won’t collapse just because a child is born. I’m getting stronger, and even if it’s a difficult birth, the priests will help us.”
Silence fumbled between the two of them.
Lowell waited so that the man holding him in his arms could fully struggle within his confusion.
Conceiving Edwin for the first time had been unexpected, and Felix had no choice.
But this time was different.
“I need more time to think.”
Because Lowell had given the choice to Felix.
“Yes.”
Lowell didn’t add more words and nodded obediently.
“Try to sleep a bit more.”
Felix covered Lowell’s eyes with his hand and suggested.
Lowell did not resist the warmth of the descending darkness and let the strength leave his body.
“Felix… tomorrow… let’s go to Swain Hill… with Edwin.”
Lowell, with one foot in consciousness and the other in unconsciousness, managed to finish his sentence.
“Okay.”
Lowell felt relieved at the answer and fell completely into unconsciousness.
While the room was filled with regular breathing, Felix contemplated in the silence.
It wasn’t an easy question to answer, but Felix could perceive for himself that at least one solid wall had disappeared.
