“Taewhan…, I love you.”
While our lips met, our bodies joined, we touched, he probed deep inside, and while he came—I confessed to him countless times.
At first, I tried to restrain myself because I felt it might burden him, but as this ‘act of love’ repeated, my feelings grew too large.
I couldn’t hold them back, so I had no choice.
However, Taewhan still hadn’t answered me.
He readily answered every other question, but he consistently met my declaration of love with silence.
“Love… Euhk!”
The one consolation was that he did show a reaction.
The more I conveyed my heart by saying “I love you,” the more intense his hip movements became.
Even if he had ceded the initiative of the act to me, he would usually flip our positions the moment he heard those words.
He drove deep inside me frantically, to the point where I wondered if he was trying to ruin my mind and my insides.
He focused on touching, biting, and sucking the places where I was most sensitive.
I struggled to make a sound, panting with my lips slightly parted, unable to even properly swallow my own saliva.
“Tae, eu-ung. Ki, kiss, ha, oop.”
Koong, Koong.
As he slammed into me so hard that it resonated in my head, his thick tongue also tried to conquer my mouth.
As my teeth, tongue, and every corner of my mouth were licked and violated, it became difficult to breathe, but I somehow managed to grasp onto my quickly fading consciousness and wrapped my arms around his neck.
It was lonely to repeatedly confess my feelings unilaterally, and I wanted an answer from Taewhan somehow, but at the same time, I didn’t want one.
I just wanted to focus on sharing our feelings through our bodies right now.
I felt that the moment his lips truly opened, things would become irreversible.
I consoled myself that it would be okay since it was Im Taewhan and no one else.
He was the person I loved the most in the world, and he would be the person who would love me the most in the world.
I didn’t think Taewhan would harm me in any way, so all his actions must be for my own good.
I just decided to believe that.
The moment I regained consciousness, a burning thirst assailed me.
My entire body felt like dry, crunchy sand.
“W-Water….”
Fortunately, on my bedside table, there was a small jug that Taewhan, the nag, always put there for me to drink before sleeping and after waking up.
I didn’t even have the composure to pour it into a cup, so I drank directly from the jug and emptied it completely before I finally felt somewhat alive.
To be honest, I wasn’t always good at listening to Taewhan, so I often wondered why he bothered bringing water every time, but today it saved me.
Vitality spread through my parched body.
“Should I bring you more water?”
“…Huh?”
I was startled by the voice coming from behind me.
Taewhan was there.
Not only was he there, but he was lying next to me, holding my waist.
More importantly… he wasn’t wearing anything.
And neither was I.
My mind went blank for a moment.
Why was Taewhan naked in my room…?
“Ah.”
Only then did the events before I fell asleep come rushing back.
My confession of my feelings, Taewhan not accepting them, the seemingly ridiculous ‘bet’ we made.
And the sex that felt like it would last forever…
I had just quenched my thirst, but it felt like a hazy steam was rising from my head again.
“I’ll bring you more.”
“No. Don’t go! I’m fine.”
As he tried to get up, I urgently hugged Taewhan.
I squeezed him with all my might, and Taewhan quickly settled down.
Actually, I was thirsty. I wanted to drink more.
But right now, my desire to be with Taewhan was greater.
- Thump. Thump. Thump.
I could hear the sound of a heart beating close by.
It was probably mine, inside me.
It was beating so loudly, as if it were about to break—as if it were malfunctioning—that I felt the thumping in my head.
“…Alright. If you’re tired, sleep some more.”
I hadn’t planned on sleeping more, but I nodded instinctively with the sole thought of not letting Taewhan go.
As if reading my mind, he lay back down and hugged me back.
The hand stroking my hair was so gentle that my body quickly melted away.
“Eut…!”
…As soon as the tension left my body, I was so startled by a sensation that my body gave a great twitch.
“What’s wrong?”
“Ah, no. It’s nothing….”
Although my voice was suspicious and anything but ‘nothing,’ and the sharp-witted Taewhan wouldn’t have failed to notice it, he didn’t press me further.
Perhaps, it could be because he already knew the reason…
In a way, he was the cause.
I tried to calm my racing heart by breathing slowly.
‘S-Semen, it was inside me….’
My body felt dry, so I thought, as always, that Taewhan had washed me while I was asleep, leaving no trace, but that wasn’t the case.
Now that I looked closely, my hair also seemed to have been wiped, not washed with water.
The semen that began to leak out flowed in a stream onto the bedsheets.
What had already escaped the hole couldn’t be helped, even if I tensed my lower body.
My anal opening had tightened and completely closed while I was sleeping, as if it had never accepted a huge object.
However, the traces of the act remained intact inside the hole.
Perhaps if I tensed my abdomen instead of my anal muscles… something big might happen.
My memory is fuzzy, but I think… there was an attempt to use a condom in the early stages of our lovemaking.
Unfortunately, the size didn’t fit.
Taewhan’s size was non-standard to begin with, and convenience stores didn’t even sell the right size, which made it incomprehensible why he even bothered to go out and buy them in the middle of it all.
Still, we tried to use one, thinking its elasticity might make it okay… but the difference was much greater than expected, and since I was already tight, enduring the pressure of the condom as well seemed too difficult, so we just decided not to use it.
It would also be a bigger problem if it tore during the act.
If he wasn’t going to use a condom, he could have finished outside my body, but Taewhan came very deep inside me every time until my belly felt warm, and he never pulled out midway.
Because the act lasted so long, I felt bloated even though I hadn’t eaten anything.
‘I don’t dislike it, though….’
I didn’t know what Taewhan was thinking when he did that, but that stubborn behavior felt typical of him.
It’s an embarrassing thought, but… I was also happy, as if he was leaving a mark of ‘his’ inside me.
I had come so many times that I could hardly release any at the end, mostly experiencing dry orgasms, but Taewhan truly ejaculated a large amount until the very end, especially because of that….
“….”
- Thump. Thump.
My heart started beating wildly again.
So much had happened last night, and my thoughts weren’t organized because I was wildly swept away by desire, so I felt Taewhan hadn’t given me a proper answer… but it shouldn’t be that way now.
He seemed to have woken up before me and had plenty of time to think.
But why was he silent?
It would be great if he would just answer my confession quickly.
Once I realized that ‘I must get an answer now,’ my insides began to churn, as if they had been waiting for the signal.
I had already waited too long.
I couldn’t just keep waiting for him to open his mouth, so I decided to call out to him first.
“Hey, Taewhan. Are you asleep?”
“No.”
It was a short answer, but for some reason, that voice felt cold enough to instantly cool my racing heart.
The Taewhan I knew wouldn’t normally be the type to stay clingy and lazy after waking up.
He should have been moving busily, whether he was making me breakfast, trying to wash me, or leaving for work.
The answer itself was also strange.
Even if I didn’t want to hear it, he was the kind of person who would force me to listen and try to define our relationship.
But his silence, and the atmosphere, somehow felt…
“….”
A chilly sense of unease seemed to pour over my body like a waterfall.
I unconsciously hunched my shoulders, and Taewhan’s large hand patted my back as if to reassure me.
Despite his voice, his touch was exactly the affectionate touch I knew from Taewhan, and I regained my composure.
I decided to gather my courage again.
“Um… What are we now?”
“….”
“Are we still friends? Or…”
The moment the word lovers came to mind, my whole body heated up.
But usually, sex is done with a lover, not a friend.
Taewhan himself had told me that you want to have sex when you love someone.
Confirming my feelings for him would have been enough in just one or two times, but we had done it so many times.
He also seemed to enjoy it…
“Do you love me? Not as a friend… but in that way….”
