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Hesia remained frozen for a long time.
When he finally collected himself, he slowly reached out and wiped away the semen that had been spilled on Vivisian’s skin.
An opaque liquid beaded on his long finger.
After briefly playing with the liquid by rubbing the one on his index finger with his thumb, he immediately used the hand, messy with semen, to stroke Vivisian’s firm body.
Like touching an expensive sculpture, his white fingers delicately touched her pale body.
Hesia’s semen smeared all over Vivisian’s body.
Hesia stared with strange eyes as the opaque, sticky liquid, as thick as his love, soiled Vivisian’s body.
His heart pounded fiercely.
So fiercely that he wondered if it might burst.
Hesia let out a self-deprecating laugh at his heart, which thumped as if it would break through his ribs.
‘When I stood before Vivi after doing something wrong in the past, I felt exactly like this…’
Hesia, who had been standing with a face that was a mix of too many emotions to be deciphered, slowly bent his upper body.
He then placed one hand on Vivisian’s chest and kissed Vivisian’s lips, which were intermittently twitching.
Vivisian’s heart, whose energy wave was somewhat stabilized, was docile, unlike Hesia’s.
‘I wish Vivi’s heart would tremble because of me. I wish Vivi would feel her heart drop because of me. I wish Vivi, I wish Vivi would…’
“…love me.”
The lips that had been slightly parted and only emitting heat-soaked groans clearly spoke out his desire.
Hesia, who confronted his own desire without realizing it, flinched for a moment.
Vivisian loving him.
If, by any chance, that really happened, he would have no regrets even if he died.
Thinking that with a bitter expression, Hesia traced Vivisian’s chest.
The warmth seemed to return to his fingertips from the pulse of her heart beating beneath his palm.
“Vivi, Vivisian…”
He traced Vivisian’s chest with one hand and kissed her lips in small pecks.
All the while, Hesia continuously mumbled Vivisian’s name, like a child searching for their parent.
Just calling her name made everything seem like it would magically be alright.
So Hesia smiled a little.
As he smiled, he suddenly felt like crying.
He wondered what would happen to him if the person who made him happy just by her name died.
He pretended everything was fine in front of Vivisian.
He said he would support all her choices, as long as she stayed by his side until the end.
But the truth was not that.
Hesia had already lost Vivisian and gambled with death, and this time would be no different.
That was the fate God had woven for Hesia.
Hesia no longer had the power to create a miracle.
More accurately, he had nothing left to offer to God for a miracle.
Everything Hesia possessed was already Vivisian’s, and the only thing he could offer beyond death had already been paid as a price…
“I, I, how can I live without you?”
‘How will I really live?’
When Vivisian died, Hesia would forget how to have a normal day.
He would forget how to smile.
He would forget how to eat and breathe.
He would forget his name, forget the meaning of his existence, and forget the reason he should live.
Forgetting one thing after another, he would stubbornly remember Vivisian’s name, and perhaps, at the moment his soul was extinguished, he might even mistake himself for Vivisian.
“Ah, yes. That ending wouldn’t be so bad.”
Hesia’s eyes curved seductively as he swallowed the breath flowing from Vivisian’s lips.
If the only thing left by his side at the moment his current life ended in exchange for a deal with God was Vivisian’s name…
Surely, such an end would not be so bad.
“Dying with your name wouldn’t be so bad.”
Hesia couldn’t ask Vivisian to die with him.
Therefore, even if all that remained for him was a mere fragment, Hesia could willingly throw himself away with that fragment.
“Vivi, you go to heaven. Then I… I will die with the things you left behind.”
This was not a threat.
Hesia could not threaten Vivisian. In the first place, nothing Hesia had could hold Vivisian.
There was not a hint of sorrow on Hesia’s face, as he had learned that fact a very long time ago.
Only the calmness of one who had accepted everything remained.
Light poured down from the moon, high, high in the sky.
A streak of light entered the dimly curtained room.
The light, which came through the slightly parted curtains, drew a faint line across Vivisian’s face.
The line made her porcelain-like face appear to have a crack.
Hesia unconsciously covered the line on Vivisian’s face with his palm.
Then, a faint line was carved onto the back of Hesia’s hand.
Hesia stayed like that for a long time, then pushed his still half-erect penis into the soft, loose orifice.
Although the energy wave had stabilized a lot, it wasn’t enough yet.
The moment his penis pushed forward, he felt a chilling sensation, as if a cold hand had brushed his lower back.
Hesia trembled slightly from the pleasure that made the hairs on his entire body stand up.
At that small movement, the soft inner flesh was stimulated.
As Hesia’s deeply embedded penis twitched, Vivisian instinctively tossed her head and furrowed her brow.
“Uh, mm…”
Hesia watched Vivisian frown, even stopping his breathing.
Just looking at her slightly crumpled face made him feel like he was going to climax.
His breathing jumped erratically, like someone who had been running without stopping.
Hesia steadied his breath and moved the hand that had been covering Vivisian’s face to trace her features.
Afraid that the spot his fingertips touched might crumble, he only gently stroked her with the back of his hand.
After some time had passed like that, perhaps because the tangled energy wave was untangling and her condition was improving, Vivisian, who had been stiff like a log, started to react.
Hesia sighed in relief when he saw Vivisian’s fingers tremble slightly.
He cautiously placed his hand on top of her twitching fingers, giving in to his desire.
The moment Hesia was about to hold Vivisian’s hand, Vivisian slowly opened her eyes.
Surprised, Hesia instinctively tried to pull his hand away, but Vivisian was a little faster.
Vivisian firmly grabbed Hesia’s hand without an inch of hesitation.
And not only did she interlace her fingers with his.
At the fingers that firmly gripped the back of his hand, Hesia immediately climaxed.
“…Vivi.”
Hesia, whose hand was captured, called out to Vivisian, looking utterly helpless like a small child who had made a mistake.
Vivisian, who was blinking groggily, rolled her eyes at the call and looked at Hesia.
“Mm, Sia.”
Vivisian, who called Hesia in a cracking voice, squinted one eye.
Vivisian’s expression gradually became subtle as she checked the situation.
“Wait a moment. Why am I with you…”
“I-I’m sorry. Vivi’s energy wave was so, so badly tangled that I had n-no choice…”
Vivisian looked at Hesia, who was stammering his explanation, with a complicated expression.
Then, she lowered her free hand and traced her orifice, which was greedily gripping his penis.
At her indifferent touch, Hesia’s body trembled, like a rabbit caught by a predator.
Vivisian glanced at his reaction, felt her own wet insides, and chuckled dryly.
“Why is my inside so wet? Sia, did you have an accident?”
“No!”
“Hmm, really? That’s a Siame. If you had an accident, I could have teased you about it forever.”
She should have been surprised or angry at this situation.
But Vivisian showed neither of those reactions.
She only smiled leisurely as always, and tossed out a playful remark.
Hesia only blinked at the unexpected reaction.
At his response, Vivisian instead tilted her head as if she found him strange.
“Why that expression?”
“Aren’t you, angry?”
Vivisian tilted her head at Hesia’s stammered question.
It wasn’t a difficult question, but Vivisian looked at Hesia with an expression of incomprehension.
Just as Hesia was about to smile bitterly, having concluded that Vivisian was teasing him after some thought.
Vivisian lifted her limp legs and wrapped them around Hesia’s back.
Then, she pulled Hesia toward her by pressing on his back.
At the sudden action, Hesia couldn’t react and collapsed on top of Vivisian.
Perhaps his penis had pushed deeper in the process, as Vivisian let out a small groan and wrinkled her nose.
“Hut!”
“You’re the one who put it in, but judging by the reaction, it seems like I put it in…”
Vivisian muttered with a dry laugh at Hesia’s reflexive gasp.
At her words, Hesia’s face turned so red it looked like it might burst if touched.
Vivisian briefly let go of Hesia’s hand and stroked Hesia’s cheek.
“Sia, you explained it yourself. That it was because the energy wave was too badly tangled.”
“What if I used that as an excuse to hold you as I pleased? What will you do if I lied, and you believed it so easily?”
“Then so be it.”
“What?”
“If that’s what you want, you can do that.”
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